Assassins and Bodyguards

I watched a movie with Xiao in my room that night. I really wanted to watch a Chinese movie, because I just really wanted to see what their movies were like, and I figured she’d have some on her harddrive. She did have a couple, but at first she thought she had seen them all. She said that she had some American movies. She also mentioned that she had some “bad movies” that Max gave her because she was “old enough.” That seemed very strange to me. In either case, we found a couple more movies and decided to watch one called Assassins and Bodyguards.

We put the computer on the chair from the desk in my room and faced it towards us and turned the lights out. It wasn’t late, maybe 9:30 or so. We sat on my bed against the wall, and the torque from my body kept pushing the bed frame away from the wall, and it got worse as I fell further into the gap between the two, and I kept having to fix it. Xiao giggled at me.

There was a girl in the movie who is apparently very famous but controversial in China. She’s very attractive but she dresses like a boy in her private life and doesn’t have a boyfriend or a husband. People think she may be a lesbian, which is rare in public life in China, unless you live in Shanghai and don’t have any presence outside of that city. She’s never said if she’s a lesbian or not.

Xiao told me about when her friend told her that she liked girls, and that more specifically she liked Xiao. She was really uncomfortable with it and told her friend “I hope you’re joking!” They didn’t talk for a couple months. It made me sad, but the conversation moved on somehow after that. I talked to her about it the next day. I don’t know if I changed her mind or not but she’s a nice person anyway so it doesn’t really matter. She asked me if any boys ever loved me and I told her about the one at Brown who had a crush on me, and that I just said I didn’t like boys and hoped we could still be friends.